So what have I learnt about the last few weeks...Yes, I really can't draw for shit.
Rendering things up on mac makes things look that much slicker and polished, but in terms of design doesn't really make things any better.
I never should have stopped taking Prozac at Christmas, I was much happier before...well I mean not happier...but less frustrated and any problem was just one stage slightly removed and easier to be objective about.
That said though I did learn a few tricks combing Illustrator and Photoshop, all i need know is an up to date copy of CS ... that and a laptop that won't fall over as soon as I try to run them both together.